Destiny

(Federal medical and dental college,Islamabad,G-8,street 32)

With  lots of fear and distortion inside, still i managed to smile at him and introduced myself,

“myself pradeep from nepal,i am here from SAARC quota.” i was  confused to approach for handshake and obiously scared for “namaste” greeting.

“haider,haider hassan from karachi nice to meet you,i guess we are roommates now.”he greeted.

 That was unexpected.haider was tall ,white,handsome enough to attract anyone,Muslim obiously and polite unexpectedly. 

I came to pakistan  for my bachelor's,i never let ambition of being doctor to escape out of my mind and that ambition dragged me to pakistan.but i was really scared to be here, i have been only  seeing  muslim in movies and and i dont know why they always got antagonism prototype .still pakistan was not that deserted as i had imagined,and furthermore i was in Islamabad so i saw alot of prosperity than there was in actual pakistan.

Haider was my roomate and he was taller than anyone in the class so i never felt insecure,he was more friendly and charming i ever imagined him to be.we became cigarette partners,we made a tag that we would never smoke when we were not together and gradually we bonded stronger.

I talked to alot of guys but i could not name any of the boys ,their names were so indifferent to me.muslims were highly obsessed with A , becaused of allah most of boys would prefer their name to start with A.and i was so confused on those names.

I used to sneak library to study .haider was so loud in room and i could not focous properly while i was with him.once i was in balcony of library,gentle breeze was dressing my hair,a sweet smell approached towards me, still i tired to get busy on my book, anatomy of preclinical science.a very attractive hand placed litmann stethoscope on my tabe,

“meherbeunee hogi agar aap yeha se uthe tow.” i lifted my head ,it was a girl obviously but i hadn't imagined any creature could be that attractive.she was like a Barbie,her eyes were cheerful ,pointed sexy nose ,perfectly arranged teeth and a cute dimple was cherry on the top.i stood up and tried to assemble my belongings .

“sorry,i was leaving ” i smiled awkwardly. I always avoided conflicts with muslims so i gave up the seat.

“mey seat share kar sakti huu..”

She shouted,as i was leaving the balcony.i returned to the seat and faked my study  and ignorance to her.

There was a awkward silence for a while,i tried to peek her behind the specks ,intrestingly she was doing same.finally she broke the silence

“mey zahirah, janab aap?”

“i am not comfortable with hindi yet.”i smiled.“i am pradeep”

“oh , you are a foreigner then?” i felt myself proud then,that moment i rationalized the word foreigner for first time.i had no grey or bolnd hair,not white body , i didn't look rich still i was a foreigner.

“yes i am from nepal,still i am hindu and i know that is gona repel you from me” i made a pseudosmile.

“this genralization is unacceptable, we are taught to love , we are taught to bring brotherhood.my name is khan and i am  not a terrorist"

A doll looking girl with this rational speech was enough to win every boys heart.there i couldn't reply her, i kept smiling.

“yuck people always tend to show off their beautiful things"she threw her books on table and relaxed herself in the chair.

“are you refering me ?”

“yeah , your smile is damm cute” i now started grinning.

“this is a sly nature of you people, they have everything beautiful and  mock other, you even got that awesomely attractive name.”

Now she smiled in shyness.

“is it? It means luminous.you too got pretty cool name.”

“inshaallaah, this is a harsh coincidence. My name also means luminous.” i tried to copy their language.

“this is surreal,we must be destined”she answered excitingly.

“bramha made me , allah made you and still do you believe we are destined?”

“you belive god made you and still write  papers about meiosis ??”

I felt she was a gem i admire but cannot posses.

"If only i met girl like you in nepal ,i wouldn't be single now."

"This is cutest way of telling you are single ,oh wait or is this another approach to ask me out?"

She winked at me.

"Oh sorry don't get me wrong ,i was just admiring  you"

"Oh come on,this is a racism .you have testosterone i have progestron why cant we go out?"

In my college i always acted like open minded and nagged people about congested ideas but here i was doomed already.

"It is really hard to say ,i have never encountered any beautiful girl than you but here i am being rational it is better for us not to do so"

Then she became furious ,she might have felt insulted .she stood up furiously took her belongings and moved straight at edge of balcony and shouted

"You cant never ever accept your destiny and obiously you are afraid to accept what you havent imagined"

She ran down the stairs ,i was left in thoughts throughout  the day in the balcony about the destiny.